Man oh man… I have been really good about holding it together through this process. Staying focused, not letting it get the best of me, etc. Very good actually. Keeping my eyes on the prize as they say… the end of the consolidation rounds, entering maintenance, not having these ups and downs in my numbers that cause all this other craziness to happen. I’ve been doing great…. and then today happened.
I know it’s natural… bound to happen. I just kind of have been falling apart all day. Crying, feeling overwhelmed. Really missing my honey. Wishing I could be with her and our new grand baby. Or even wishing she was here. I know I will get a grip. Tomorrow will be better and I will be back to my fighting self… it’s just been tough today.
Taking a big breath right now….
OK… snapping out of it.
Don is here tonight. He came to spend the night and part of tomorrow with his honey. So nice. And… Stan, my lovely friend, came to visit me today. It was good to see him. Always is. His daughter is in the process, I think, of giving birth to his new grandchild. Only three days apart from ours. Kinda cool.
I’m bucking up… getting it together. This has been a message from your emotional broadcasting center… but this has only been a test. We will resume our regular broadcasting immediately… not as emotional… strong, determined, and resilient. That’s the me that’s getting me through this…. and will continue to.
Tam
You have done so beautifully holding up. You’re certainly entitled to a breakdown day and I KNOW that you will be together once again tomorrow. Hugs & Kisses and lots of love. Auntie Syd.
Love and hugs right back to you!
Tam, you are doing surprisingly well at keeping it all together. I don’t know as though I would be as strong as you have been. Love you, Penny
Love you too Penny.
It’s ok to be emotional. What you’re going through is very difficult. Don’t beat yourself up about it. You don’t always have to be so strong all the time. Be good to yourself. It’s ok to cry..It’s ok to scream.. It’s ok to be mad. You’re only human (ok.. to me, you’re super human, but that’s just my opinion:)
I love you Linda.