Tam’s Think Tank

I haven’t posted in a few days. Couldn’t muster up the strength to even hold the laptop let alone blog anything of significance.. Now though, well now I am having a moment. Not to say this day is going to be awesome. But… this moment is a better moment than it was even this morning. Relativity. It’s all relativity.

Today I go liquid…. they are putting me on a liquid diet. As in through the IV. I was asked if I was allergic to soy and eggs. LOL Too funny. Uh, no, I’m not, I’m also not allergic to chocolate mousse… if you feel like throwing some of that into the bag. Feel free.

Why the liquid diet you ask? Well… seems my intestinal track is shot right now. The whole damn track of them… throat to bowls. Anything that goes in comes immediately out. The system is down… mayday, mayday…

The solution, to give my whole system a break, is for it to be basically bypassed. Hence the chocolate mousse nutrition.

I have had some not so enjoyable days lately… spiked a couple of temperatures (and let me tell you how they go into action when a neurtropenic spikes a temp (blood draws and cultures, chest x-ray, UA, and a freshly hung bag of antibiotics next to the saline) They test everything… trying to see if I have some kind of infection), tired, lots of nausea, some throwing up, major major… well… the big D (don’t mean to get too graphic, but then this is my record, my story, my blog and… it’s the truth). Karen helped me to the bathroom last night every 30 minutes or so. Neither of us getting any sleep.

In fact, I’m sitting here blogging and just actually dozed off. This might be first for me… napping while blogging. Could make for some free form comments. LOL

This laptop rocks….

Anyway…. sick. I had my 6th transfusion now and more platelets than that. On a brighter note… I think I might be starting to loose my hair. Not sure, but it sure seems like more than usual is coming out in strands when I run my fingers through it. Soon I may be able to tap into my ever growing stash of fabulous hats, scarves, and do-rags. No more hair to have to keep clean. I think it’s coming.

Oh man… one of the nurses just brought in her puppy… so cute. I couldn’t touch her… they had to keep he in my door way, but they brought her in. Makes me miss my babies. Though yes, I know Kev and Mom are definitely taking such great care of them. I still miss those little buggers.

This post is sort of rambling on… no real direction. Must be because that’s how I sort of feel right now. A bit disheveled and very very tired. LOL I just typed bery bery tired. I think that’s how I should leave it. Too funny. I’ll try to be more communicative in the future, if I can.

For all my friends and family… you mean everything to me. Your love and support is definitely being felt up here. It’s surrounding me and buoying me up. Karen keeps reading your thoughts and good wishes to me, relaying every last word of love. I am, as I said before… so blessed.